[NEWS] Yoochun speaks up for the first time about his controversy, marriage, and wish to return
JYJ’s Yoochun spoke up for the first time since his sexual assault controversy.
On July 17, Yoochun reached out to his fans with a sincere message via Instagram.
His post reads as follows:
“I can’t say anything else. I just wanted to tell everyone that I’m really sorry… But I didn’t how… Honestly, I didn’t have confidence. I’m just very sorry to the point where I just want to die… I’m so sorry. Even if my body gets destroyed day by day and cry, how could it be worse than the pain I gave you… I’m really sorry. I don’t like having articles pop up on portal sites and I know I’m really late but I’m sorry…
I recently spoke with Darakbang and I sincerely revealed that I want to stand up again… But I think my wish to start again doesn’t depend on my own desires. I’m just really sorry.
A lot of articles had information that I also heard for the first time but I couldn’t do anything about it. I’m just always sorry to you guys. I hope the day will come for me to deliver my apologetic mind.
I’m also sorry for not letting you guys know earlier about my marriage. It was difficult to talk about it when I haven’t even apologized yet. Please understand.
I’m trying hard day by day. You guys probably had a hard time holding on too. I’m so sorry and thankful. I really, sincerely wish I can greet you guys one day. Please give encouragement for me and Hana (Yoochun’s fiance). Again, I’m sorry.”
Credit: Allkpop
.
[NEWS] JYJ’s Park Yoochun Writes First Personal Message To Fans After Controversy
JYJ’s Park Yoochun has broken his long silence after the controversies that affected him this past year, such as being accused (and subsequently acquitted) of sexual assault and the news of his upcoming marriage.
On July 17, Park Yoochun wrote a personal apology to his fans on his Instagram account. The account was reportedly revealed to the public through his fianceé Hwang Ha Na’s Instagram account.
“I can say nothing else…” the apology read. “I am very sorry to everyone. I wanted to tell everyone I’m sorry… but I couldn’t think how… I had no confidence either… Really… I’m so sorry I could die… I’m very sorry… Even if you hurt your body every day… and cried… could it hurt more than the scars I’ve given you? I’m sorry… I hate having headlines pop up on portal sites… But even so this is too late… I’m sorry… Not long ago I was in communication with Darakbang… I told him honestly… that I wanted to try to get up again. But… I think that it’s not up to me whether I get a fresh start… I’m just really sorry… In a lot of headlines there was news was hearing for the first time too… But I couldn’t stop those rumors in their tracks. I am always feeling sorry to everyone. I dearly hope for the day where I can see you all directly and show you how I feel… And about my marriage… I’m sorry that I couldn’t tell everyone beforehand. I didn’t even apologize… It was hard to tell everyone. I ask for your understanding. Every day I’ve been enduring this as best I can… Everyone else must have endured a lot too… I’m sorry and thank you. I really really hope I can greet you all in person some day… Please support Ha Na and me… Once again, I’m sorry.”
On July 18, his fiancée Hwang Ha Na also posted a message on her personal Instagram. “I didn’t want to post something like this but this will be the first and last time,” she said. “I think everyone is too selfish. Does the world revolve around you? Have you ever tried to change your perspective? When you tear someone apart and curse them out, what if it was you or your family or the people you love?”
She continued, “How long does someone have to constantly be on their guard and live hiding away from the world? Do you believe all the rumors and headlines to be true? You don’t know how people feel inside. Do we have to live while accepting that we’ve been misunderstood? To want to speak out but have to hold it in? I don’t know.”
She went on to write her own apology, stating, “All the things I’ve done wrong, I sincerely apologize for. I will live trying to be kind to others.” However, she spoke out strongly against malicious comments targeting the people around her. “If I do something wrong, I will apologize and it’s fine if you curse me out. But don’t curse out the people around me. If you hate me, just look away […] Just focus on the person around you and live happily while looking at good things… It probably causes stress to people who hate me to look at me… So it’s just better to not look.”
Meanwhile, Park Yoochun is currently serving in the army as a public service officer and will be discharged this August.
Sources: (1) (2)
Top Photo Credit: XPORTSNEWS
Credit: Soompi
.
JYJ3’s Note: This is the alleged Park Yuchun’s Private Instagram Account @60026000thep all the post are deleted now, but some fans think it wasn’t him updating since CJeS has not confirmed his official account and most photos are not about him. Fans found about this IG account after his fiance Hwang Hana started to tag him. We can’t confirm anything but still share these news.
Pic Credit: @ParkYoochunBR
Shared by: JYJ3
JYJ3 
Yeah, I noticed it had been deleted already. But on the other hand it made me feel good. After discovering the account it gained some 45k followers in 24 hours even with all the doubts about it being Yoochun’s. It was nice to have confirmation that he is still loved. Even if it was not really him, I hope the word gets to him that we are waiting for him and still love him.
I think the “doubts” by fans have been a very overblown issue, frankly. I don’t think the majority of his fans had anything in their minds but worry for him and dismay at the wholesale media Trash-athon that was created. People who didn’t love Yuchun in the first place, of course the haters, the astroturfing undoubtedly orchestrated by the backroom minions at SM… all of these kinds of people did indeed create what seemed at the time like never-ending havoc and obviously have scarred Yuchun emotionally for life. But his fans? A poll I saw said that 94% of his fans will stick by him, no matter what. I think faux-fans who were so quick to judge, condemn and publicly humiliate Yuchun are better off OUT of his fandom.
Absolutely agree with what you said, to the last word. 😀 But you missunderstood. I wasn’t talking about Yoochun but this account. People doubted it was really Yoochun’s personal account and despit that it still had 45k followers in just a few hours. 😀
Oh, and I wasn’t calling into question anything you said, Lizzy. I just wrote my own observations. 🙂
Also if you open those account on twitter talking bad about him. They are ALWAYS,I repeat ALWAYS an sm lover they can fan of exo nct,gg SJ, it can’t be a coincidence
Yes, I know that’s true. Seems like SM is fomenting poison at the root of so many haters. But they don’t matter and they never have – haters have never made a bit of difference in the rise to success in JYJ’s careers individually or even collectively. They are noisy and annoying and regularly upsetting to read what they write, yes, but in terms of the popularity and success of the members, they are a non-issue.
I was just thinking of him recently that he’ll be done with his MS in a little over a month. I agree with your sentiments, Lizzy. I’m sure he has a lot to say but I can imagine it’s hard to do so…where to start and all. I, too, hope he knows that we are still here waiting and wishing him the very best… Fighting. AKTF.
The account for Yoochun is still up, the posts have been deleted though. Hana’s instagram has been deleted.
Although I am happy to hear from him, I don’t think he has to apologize for anything because he did nothing wrong. He is the one who deserves to be apologized to for being treated so unfairly and inhumanely by the media and those quick-to-judge netcitizens before there was even any investigation underway, It’s time for him to put this behind him and focus on his marriage and the people who truly matter, the ones who should be feeling sorry should be those who started this mess and those that helped aggravate it, not him.
*claps profusely.* I second this!
During the trouble he apologized to his fans for worrying them. As far as I’m concerned the results of the trial and his exoneration speak for themselves. All of the apologizing in this latest statement is unnecessary and frankly, for me anyway, painful to read, It makes me think that he has been severely emotionally traumatized by what he has gone through. Which is worrying. So I feel like I’m back to Square One.
@lilibaiyu
Yeah I feel the same way. Let’s hope this is the last time he apologizes and that he gets a big warm welcoming from the Korean fans when he is released so he can finally get this weight of his shoulders and return to his funny, bright self. I feel all this apologizing is his way of trying to ease back into the limelight before he has to face everyone head on more than anything, at least I hope so, because he seems to be really happy in Hana’s recent photos. I just wish there were some way us international fans could express our support though.
I do too, because international fans are overwhelmingly supporting him and never judged him. And there are a LOT of us. 🙂
It’s hard to internalize all his apologizing. I agree with you guys completely. His sighing is another thing for me that is painful. It reminds me of when I was at rock bottom and thought things like, “I feel like death and don’t know what to do,” and sighed after those thoughts. When I hear him sigh, I feel like the thoughts rummaging through his head that want to escape are having to be swallowed. I can feel the trauma through it. He looks so worn down, it hurts. That said, I truly hope that his marriage works out. From what I have heard about the two of them, it sounds like they are meant for each other. I hope he is letting his hardships and mind be known to her so can support him through it. She is good for him.
Hi Paige! Not sure if you know this blog is no longer active. And it seems you don’t know Yoochun and Hana are no longer together. He has successfully completed fan meetings in Japan over this summer , but has not surfaced since. We JYJ fans often call him the reluctant celebrity. And since those awful occurrences we were encouraged he’d stay with us after the fan meeting. But alas, this has not happened. We all look for a day he will restart his career. But he may choose not to. You can join us at Stand Up 4 JYJ on Facebook if you’d like to keep up with our JYJ boys!
I don’t know what does mean Darakbang ? Can anyone explain please ?
For Yoochun I hope he realizes many of us are still waiting for JYJ, and JYJ can’t exist without him as Junsu said in his Vlive and as Jaejoong said in his treaure book interview. I really want him to comeback. I don’t know if it’s possible for him to work as an actor in Korea, but I think it’s very possible in Japan.
For his private life it’s honestly none of our business, I just hope this marriage will help him to gain confidence and comeback not lose it and give up.
For Hana, I’m going to be honest I was positive about her at first, but she keeps making controversies that we are so tired to even defend yoochun from them. If she can be wiser in her posts …of course when it comes to post that involves Yoochun it will be the best for everyone. Love and respect are given by default to people we love loved ones, if these people lose it they should just try earn it again by themselves.
Last but not least Yoochun changed a lot that I can’t believe it’s really Yoochun who wrote this, my feelings are confused.
Thank you Mia for this post ❤
From other translations I saw, it’s a religious figure like a priest or father.
Hana’s instagram was deleted yesterday. I don’t know if she has/will make another one though.
Well, people do tend to take on speech mannerisms from people they hang out with so it is possible that he has adopted some of her’s especially if they spend a lot of time together.
Darakbang is an admin of his fanclub- Blessing Yuchun fanclub
Really? Hmmm, interesting.
I’m telling you for sure, Darakbang is blessingyuchun fansite master. I hope Darakbang will convince Yoochun to return as soon as possible.
The yetiii talked to his fan why does this make me feel so good, blessing Yuchun are his best FC (in my opinion) I won’t choose better than them to represent fans to Yoochun.
@Lara what you said makes a sense also Yoochun went thru so much it must have changed a lot on him..
@jaechnsu With darakbang being a fansite runner, it changes the meaning that I originally thought of the sentence.
“Not long ago I was in communication with Darakbang… I told him honestly… that I wanted to try to get up again. But… I think that it’s not up to me whether I get a fresh start”
If Darakbang is a religious figure, it sounds more like he wants to rebuild himself & his mental strength while seeking forgiveness from others if they are willing to do so. With Darakbang being a fansite runner, it changes the meaning into him wanting to continue on with his career but that it depends on whether fans will support him.
I am glad to see that he has the drive to continue on, though he has certainly been put through the wringer & is still coping – the will to move forward is very important.
Hi. Just catching up on the news here. Have JJ or Junsu commented at all on Yoochun’s situation? It’s been a year since the stories broke and a lot has happened. Will there ever be another JYJ album or concert? What’s the consensus?
The images of Yoochun (traumatized) and his fiancé ( immature) hopefully are just bad PR. Once his military service is complete, perhaps things will change. He’s been “banned” before and survived.
Carole, the only comment I’m aware of came from Jaejoong when the engagement news broke and it was a big NO on his Instagram. There was some confusion about it because his prior post had been about No Min Woo. (Y’all, please correct me if I’m remembering wrong.) So, was Jaejoong talking about him or the engagement. An ‘insider’ told some news feed that Jae’s reaction was to the engagement. Take that for what it is worth. Junsu….I’ve not seen anything from him. Has anyone? I’m so very saddened and upset over Yuchun’s situation. How much longer will he endure? As for JYJ…only time will tell.
Thank you Georgia Peach. I hope the bonds formed when they split off on their own will be strong enough to weather this storm and return as three. Things seemed really dismal this time last year and got better. Ugh. What a messy situation.
Also to my knowledge, GP, neither Junsu nor Jae has directly said anything about the allegations, the outcome or the engagement news. it’s been quite puzzling to me, actually. Could Yuchun have told them both not to get anywhere near him or all his trouble so they also would not be tarnished? That is certainly within the realm of possibility when the term ” serial rapist” was being thrown around and so many negative comments were being spat out at people who voiced support of Yuchun.
I have certainly thought these same thoughts. It shows wisdom on his and their part to not comment. This is why it is so puzzling to me that Bride-to-be appears to be such a loose cannon! Now the headlines read….BREAKUP IMMINENT. Then comes a denial from Hana. This is beginning to sound like Watergate.
Sent from Yahoo Mail for iPad
I hope she is not becoming addicted to the drama of being at the center of tabloid media’s glare. It’s an ugly and thankless place to be, although terribly exciting, of course.
@Sherry Baker
Hello, Sherry. Welcome to our club. Have you been lurking around the way I used to, till you finally came out. I fully agree with you. JYJ, as a matter of principle, do not respond to gossip. They are too dignified to do that. Moreover, they are smart and know that any response will be deliberately reinterpreted and misinterpreted and would only add fuel to and keep the fire burning.
No Jaejoong and Junsu didn’t comment on Yoochun’s situation, but bith have said JYJ can’t be JYJ unless the 3 are together… also both JJ and JS mentioned JYJ or YC randomly like if nothing is going wrong in other places, but also both of them avoid to start talk over Yoochun’s scandal.
I’m not about to speculate whether or not these posts are Yuchun’s or Ha Na’s; just want Chunnie to know we’re waiting for him and anticipating his marriarge! ❤
Regardless of who wrote this post, it’s very obvious that there are tons of fans who are still waiting for him and want him back-me included. I have no doubt that yuchun has been severely tramatized by the effects that this has had on not only his life, but the lives of those that are family and friends. We can only continue to wait and hope that he knows that we are all rooting for him and wanting him to have a good life again.
Yoochun has my unconditional love. He is only human. He is not perfect like everyone else. I embrace his imperfections. As to his future wife, less said is best for him. JYJ forever! If Junsu and Jaejoong still want him, then so be it. I will support them.
Yoochun, i miss you! I’m happy to see that he wants to continue his career, i hope chunsas and JYJ fans will give him the support he needs!
I’m feeling the same, lilibaiyu. It saddens me to read the post. There is such hesitancy in his words. Almost fear of the results of those words. Does anyone know for sure about the comments on the Instagram account once this was posted…..were they more positive or negative ? And, yes, bride to be needs to stay away from posting on any form of SN. She is not engaged to a person whom she can be all giggly over and show the world to. She is throwing Yuchun to the wolves with each post. Why doesn’t she feel more protective toward him? Can she not, by now, see she is causing a great deal of harm to him? I know she is excited with love and who she is in love with…who wouldn’t be, HOWEVER…She better be deeply in love because she will have to be loyal, trustworthy, mature, responsible, steadfast….well, the list could go on and on….in order to be the bulwark for him she needs to be. But Hana…I’m not feeling that from you. Some comments have said they doubted Yuchun wrote this post. That it was Hana who wrote it. If this comes anywhere remotely close to the truth and she did write it…..Yuchun has a serious problem. 😩 Surely, he wouldn’t agree to allowing her to do that….even if he couldn’t quite bring himself to composing an apology himself. Dying here in Georgia! And Yuchun is dying the death of a thousand cuts. Where are some PR advisers?
I agree 100% that what Hana has to look forward to in her married life is no bed of roses. It’s going to be hell for her as a matter of fact.
We’ll have to see what happens there. Being with an Idol as popular as Yuchun was all of those years (arguably the most popular of DBSK and JYJ) and having a significant portion of his millions of fans hating on you and writing horrid things about you day in day out is going to wear on anyone, let alone a rich, entitled “elite” like Hana. I wonder how she will stand it for long.
Seems to me she has made her bed of spikes. If she keeps to herself and enjoys her relationship with Yuchun ….. this gives no one an opportunity to say horrid things about you, right? It appears she can’t contain herself and feels obliged to show and tell the world she has caught a Very Big FIsh….a Korean superstar idol. I’m proud for her. I hope she is worthy of that love from him and I hope she is the most precious person who ever drew a breath and there is no one who could be compared to her in any Way! I feel she needs to focus on him and on building their relationship and stop wanting to brag! Or what ever she is trying to do! She has only come across as very immature and shallow. Love your man, girl ! That’s what we as Chunnie fans want you to do….protect him, cherish him, help us feel good about the decision he has made in loving you…..
Sorry, I can preach sometimes…😔
@Georgia Peach & @lilibaiyu
Completely agree to what you both said…since from the start they keep it to themselves, whatever path they choose you can’t please everyone..she should have expected this coming…she’s adding more fuel into the fire..let them be those who got nothing good to say….sigh, if they want to reach out to fans again, it is better when they could both stand or show themselves together supporting each other and showing that love to us…i think that would be the proper thing to do
How hurtful it must be for Yuchun to know his fiancée is so disliked by his fans. What young girl in love doesn’t want to share her happiness and brag a little? I don’t know what Hana could have done wrong to warrant the judgmental attitudes so many fans have expressed, but if she is giving a glimpse into their private lives, be honest, aren’t you all a little glad to see that? Why should she want to hide him away like she’s ashamed of him? I’m happy she’s proud to be with him when so many comments I’ve read say he should be ashamed and not show his face, and call him names at the same time. Brave girl to stand up for him and call people out on their selfishness.
I agree with you. Hana is a young girl in love, happy, excited & proud of her fiance. Given the scandal I would rather he be with a woman like her who is so obviously proud of him & excited about their coming marriage than someone who wants to hide him & their relationship away like it’s something to be ashamed of. Whether she should hide their relationship away for the sake of Chunnie’s image is only up to two people, herself & Yoochun, & as she continues to post about him & their engagement, one can assume he is happy for her to do so. & lbr, we all know that those who want to ignore the truth & continue to hate on Chunnie will continue to do so, whether Hana closes her SNS or not, & that include jealous, possessive fans who think they own him. & Chunnie knows that all too well. He hasn’t been this famous for this long not to know both how scandal hungry media & possessive fans work. Fans need to remember we’re not his mother, we have no right to tell him or his loved ones how they should live their lives, nor do we get to decide who is & isn’t suitable for him. If he’s making a mistake then time will tell & he will learn & grow from it, as is his right to do so. But in the meantime, with the sheer hell he’s been through this year, the last thing he needs or deserves is fans attacking his fiancee, the woman who loved, supported, cherished & stood by him through what was arguably the worst time in his life, when public opinion wasn’t just against him but was all for destroying both Chunnie & his career permanently. Remember that heart-breaking photo when he looked like he had aged 20 years overnight? If “fans” aren’t careful, they might find they are pushing Chunnie out of JYJ & singing & acting all by themselves with their jealousy, possessiveness & constant hate & attacks on Hana. No matter how much I loved my career I know I wouldn’t want to put my loved one in an environment where they are constantly getting hated on & attacked just because I love them.
Sapphire, you said it! Jealous and possessive fans, if they can’t have Yuchun, then they’ll just tear apart the girl who gets him. In the face of all that has happened to Yuchun, and all the media lies that have been following him and JYJ for the last ten years, he has shown incredible strength, and you’re right he’s used to it. For Hana, an ordinary girl in love, to endure the gossip, lies and attacks, she too will have to be incredibly strong. I hope she is and doesn’t give up.
This very public trashing of what you’ll never have for yourself among Korean fans is as old as the pop idol phenomenon. They are brutal and it’s the same for all idols – only with Yuchun, it’s much worse of course because of his recent troubles. Yuchun understands what Korean fans are like very well – he’s lived in this world, had to sneak around to date, etc etc etc for YEARS now. Hana has not. She wants a storybook romance and a storybook wedding to her prince charming and it’s just not going to happen like that for her. If Yuchun really loves her, it’s going to be more sadness for him. 😦
After all this happening to Yuchun and Hana, you can be sure we’ll never hear about Jaejoong and Junsu dating. They’ll be married for ten years with five kids before the public ever hears about it.
Again, though – the misery of K-fan outrage is nothing new to the members of JYJ. They have seen it and lived it in real-time for 14 years now. To a person not in the Korean entertainment field though, it must be a nightmare she can’t wake up from.
@KimberlyJ that’s a bit too much… YC’s case is way too complicated! It’s not like the public haunted them just because they are getting married..
I know we all have our own opinion on Hana, but the fact is none of us actually know her, all we know is what we see on her instagram account. If you looked at my twitter, you would see I love Jaejoong madly, I hate YJS, I like animals & I like to trash talk reality TV shows – all of which is a very, very small part of the person I really am. Just because she’s young, rich & pretty doesn’t mean it’s a fact that Hana has had an easy or pain free life, or that she doesn’t have the inner strength & fortitude to cope with a life in the public eye & marriage to an idol superstar who brings a whole horde of jealous, possessive fans with him. I know that not all of those expressing concern are jealous & possessive, but are genuinely worried about Chunnie, but like I wrote earlier, we aren’t his mother, we can’t tell him how to live his life & nor do we have any right to tell him who is & isn’t suitable for him. Chunnie has been to hell & back this year, & unless more definitive proof comes out, there will always be the stain of rapist hanging over him in the eyes of haters & many of the public who read the sensationalist clickbait & didn’t bother to stay around for the clarifications & trials clearing Chunnie of all wrong doing. That Hana was with him, loving & supporting him during one of the worst times of his life may not mean anything to some, but it means a lot to me. Whether she is “the one” for him & whether or not this relationship will work in the long run is not my business to speculate, let alone to criticize. Like every other human being on this planet, Chunnie has the right, the privilege & the responsibility to live his life the way he chooses, not the way “fans” dictate, whether those fans motives are from jealousy & possessiveness or from genuine worry & concern. That some of these so called fans were celebrating the initial report that Hana wanted to end the engagement is just vile. Hasn’t Chunnie been through enough anguish this year without his so called fans wishing for & celebrating more potential heartbreak & suffering for him??
@Lilibaiyu “Again, though – the misery of K-fan outrage is nothing new to the members of JYJ. They have seen it and lived it in real-time for 14 years now. To a person not in the Korean entertainment field though, it must be a nightmare she can’t wake up from.”
Agreed. Like JYJ she will have to find a way to deal with it. Ignoring the media would be a start. & ignoring certain sections of the fandom who demand everything from Chunnie, proclaim undying love & support for him, but then refuse to respect him & his choices when he does something they don’t like would be another great start. Whether this marriage lasts or not we’ll just have to wait & see. But harassing his fiancee for any reason, from jealousy, to concern, will only hurt Chunnie & put stress on their relationship.
Sorry for the stuffy lecture. It burns me up when so many fans constantly proclaim their undying love, trust in, respect & support for JYJ but then when JYJ do something said fan doesn’t like, be it dating, or just a different genre of acting or music, said fan goes ballistic questioning & criticizing them…
Well said Sapphire. @Nora Kim. Sure Yuchun’s life is complicated now, but the attacks are no joke. Too many people get malicious pleasure out of trashing Hana for showing her happiness, so it may not be about his marriage, but it is about who he’s marrying. If it’s not about who he’s marrying then it’s the made up stories about them, and all the things that can be done to ruin Yuchun’s image further. We all stumble and make mistakes, but does every little thing have to be blown out of proportion? Will making snide comments change their life or yours? No, it only adds to the ugliness already out there. I can imagine how sick to his stomach Yuchun must be to know people he loves are on the receiving end of hateful comments by his “fans”.
It’s going to be incredibly hard for both of them-especially when every single word or deed will be judged. She’s going to have to develop a VERY thick skin to survive all the backlash. I really hope they make it but she’ll have to be very, very mature and careful about every action. I know it’s natural to want to let people know how happy you are so I’m just saying that a bit of caution is warranted. I wish yuchun could get a break from all the haters but they are still acting like a pack of rabid dogs !
situations like those make you always know real lovers and real haters …even thought it was bitter but it still have some bright sides such as knowing true and trustworthy fans and friends … life is not always about joy and happiness,at times like those, this is when a person actually need true friends and funs and not only when he is in the top of his success..how great it would be if only people waited for the court to say its word and give him a chance to defend himself.